Wednesday, 21 October 2009


OMG, I've got them! Everywhere. All along my hairline. Down along my chin. Behind my ears. On my back. On my chest. Lumpy, bumpy white heads! And red, swollen cysts. Yuck! Some are painful, some are itchy and some are just plain unsightly. I haven't had to deal with anything like this in quite a few years. I had forgotten how horrible it could be.

I was one of those people who never saw a zit in high school. Don't hate me yet... wait for it... but I got cystic acne at 21 and I have had it ever since! I think that 20 years of cystic acne is far worse than a couple years of teenage zits. Right? Right?! Can I hear an amen?! Since I had so many, many, many years to try and find a cure for it, I tried everything but nothing worked. Well, until I discovered IVF that is. Oh Lupron, you might mean headaches for some but to me you are a cyst fighting superhero!! I could wax poetic about you all day.

As soon as I started my first round of Lupron my acne cleared up. Amazing!! And then all my pregnancy hormones kept it at bay for another year and a half. Over the last few months, I had started to notice a cyst here and there, but now they back with a vengeance. I don't know if it is the residual effects of the DHEA or the bcp's. I don't remember ever getting zits from bcp's before. In fact one of my dermatologists put me on bcp's to try and calm it down years ago. Hmmm... Do people usually get zits from bcp's?? Anyway I have cysts and zits everywhere and I can't wait to get to the Lupron. Bring on the injections! Let's kick some zit-ass!!!

I mean, I'm 42 2/3 for heaven's sake! I shouldn't still be battling acne, right??! I'll try and take some small bit of comfort in something that The Infertile Breeder once said to me...

If you're are still getting breakouts, you're probably still fertile.

Man, I hope that's the case because I'm old enough to have a teenager but I definitely don't want to be one again.... unless of course, it gets me what I really want. If the trade off is zits for a baby, I'll take it any day!!


  1. Sorry you're feeling so icky! Being an older lady with acne sucks, I know. I used to crack up at the grocery store when I'd see the weird assortment of stuff in my shopping cart: baby food, acne concealer, wrinkle cream, and denture cleaner (yes, it's mine.. I need it to clean my anti-teeth-grinding dental appliance). Bring on the Lupron, I say!

  2. I still get breakouts randomly - seems really unfair to have that and the "fine lines" at the same time! I gave up using the retin-a years ago when we wanted to have another baby - it seemed that I was always either pregnant, starting an ART cycle, planning to start one soon, or hoping for a natural surprise pregnancy. Meanwhile, the spots came and went and the lines came and stayed.

    I was on ortho -tri bcps for the last cycle and my skin looked amazing. I didn't even have lupron, but maybe the ganerelix does the same thing? I had no spots and my pores shrank to nothing! Too bad it's not recommended for anyone older than 35 or I'd be on it regularly...

    Hope your spots are good indicators of coming success!